February9
Never in my life have I been more excited about the changing of the Presidential guard. “Out with the old, in with the new!” I hear myself chanting in my head.
In reality I wonder if “new” is ever obtainable in American Presidential elections? I’d like to believe that it is, but the fact of the matter is that the entrenched machinery of the government and the special interest groups have a tendency to grind away political idealism and such the fervor of change right out of the Presidency.
Or like in the case of George W. Bush, political and social pressures ripped away the thin veneer of sanity to reveal something darker and more frightening underneath.
Whatever the case, whomever is elected President in 2008 has a monumental task of repairing public opinion at home and abroad of the Unites States, and in particular in its government. Between the war and the economy, we have to consolidate and refocus on our own problems and our own borders before we implode.
Have a look at this site when you have some time, it offers a pretty decent way to compare the candidates and see their relative information.

August15
Ever get in a funk from time to time? I am generally a pretty easy going person, but from time to time I just get a little morose. And I know exactly what is fueling this feeling … Fear of being ordinary.
Fear that I am not a special flower destined to bloom and fill the world with wonder. Fear that there is nothing special about me, nothing that I am destined to excel at, or have others find desire to have. Fear that I am ordinary, borderline if not completely mediocre.
Every time I think about think maybe I will never be great at something, a bit or me dies. And its utterly stupid because I think I am a great father, and know its something I can do that will inspire confidence in my son which could in turn be what makes him excel.
Why isn’t that enough to sustain me? Its human nature I guess. Being a great father is a selfless job, something you do out of love, something that you don’t expect anything in return for.
And thats the crux of the matter really. Love is selfless, ambition and the desire for praise is self sustaining, mental masturbation if you will for our ego’s.
What I need to do is realize that even if I never accomplish anything else in this world other than being a great father, I will have accomplished more than any temporary praise or fame I might receive from lesser pursuits.