December12
Online games are a diversion that have caused me to spend obscene amounts of time online in virtual worlds grinding away to reach the ever dangling carrot in front of my characters nose.
It all started with Everquest. Back then massive multi-player online games (MMORPG) were relatively new on a scale like Everquest offered. Logging in was for the first time was sweetly euphoric.
It wasn’t long before Everquest was dubbed “Evercrack”. Reports would start to trickle in of people committing suicide, dropping out of school, jobs being lost, relationships being ruined.
The mere suggestion of addiction caused players around the world to draw their swords and bare their teeth. I was one of those who denied it, debunked it and generally made fun of the mere suggestion.
To me it was an escape from reality; “Me time” was what I liked to call it, and it was something I justified by saying that I did it late at night when it wouldn’t impact my family time.
And yet it did affect me. People are not meant to get three or four hours of sleep, the body needs more. I of course argued to the contrary.
While the argument could hold true for the occasional late night, when done repeatedly almost every day for years on end, the result was a cranky, perpetually tired, prone to falling asleep me.
So much for not affecting family time. It also caused a feeling of separation to grow between my wife and I. That close special bond we had began to stretch with each night of online game play. It would end up being stretched thin and to the breaking point.
Worse still was the addictive nature of it all, it consumed my thoughts and was something I wanted to do whenever I had free time. It called to me, I longed for it. If that isn’t addiction I don’t know what is. But had you asked me if I was addicted back then, the answer would have been a vehement answer of no.
Eventually I did quit Everquest only to move to Star Wars Galaxies. A game that appealed to me because unlike Everquest which required large group play at the high levels (play which I could no do due to early start time requirements), Star Wars Galaxies did not. One could reach the pinnacle of being a Jedi on their own.
Hot damn! That was enough for me. What they didn’t mention was that the grind to that goal would be worse than the grind in Everquest ever was, about a solid year or more was wasted climbing my way to become a dark Jedi knight.
But if there is one constant in the online gaming world, it is the ability of the player base to whine and complain. And with Galaxies the whining was eventually heard, and the game changed where anyone could be a Jedi from the get go. You can imagine my frustration at seeing my time and effort go down the tubes. I quit in protest.
And went to World of Warcraft. A game that was what Everquest dreamed of being, well designed, interesting quests, great player versus player play, and yet another hill to climb.
Eventually despite WoW’s enhancements I hit the same high level requirement for group play to advance. About this time I received another wake up call that all of this gaming had severely strained my relationship with my wife.
I quit WoW cold turkey and have not played it since (going on 1y 6 months). Recently I decided to give EVE Online a try at the urging of my friend Phil (a past WoW addict like myself).
Unlike every other game I have played, advancement is not contingent on grinding. The skill system is time based. Start training something and it will say it will be completed in x days or y hours.
With that pressure to advance removed, and given the fact that it is about the least social game I have ever played, I am left without the addictive feelings or drive to play that permeated the other games.
My wife is as you can imagine skeptical, past memories have forever left a permanent bad taste in her mouth and I can’t blame her. All I can do going forward is to show her that this game isn’t like the others through action, or in this case inaction (not playing). I know I am different than I was back then, I am happier and healthier than I have been in years and I will not hesitate to drop EVE in a heartbeat if has any indication of changing that status.